I’m not even sure how to title this post | Where my head’s at.

There’s good and bad in my life right now. And as I’m busy getting my shit in order, I’m not writing. The thoughts are just roaming around in my head, aimlessly.

A brief update for those who care:

The Party & The Comedian

  • The party on Friday night was great fun. I hadn’t heard from the Comedian and figured he wouldn’t show up. But he did. Out of the blue. It was a nice time with him, and weird to be with someone who other guests (and their children) immediately recognized.
  • The Comedian decided to leave a little early. After he gave me a hug and the kind of kiss that meets delightfully partially on ones lips, my drunken friend the host pushed me out the door after him, insisting – out loud – that he must simply make out with me on her porch. He muttered something to me about his life being up in the air, and walked away.
  • In some ways I’m glad he didn’t try to kiss me, because I had planned to tell him about Tony. But on the other hand, I was irritated that there was obviously something going on with him and he didn’t tell me about it. Nor has he contacted me since.

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Two out of three ain't bad (aka I lost my job today)

Well. That didn’t go well.

For the first time in my life, I’ve become “redundant”. It’s truly not personal nor is it performance based – my company is going through a massive restructuring, aided by an international top strategy consulting firm, and the decision was made to combine my team and another team. Obviously, they don’t need two senior executives to run one team. Both me and my colleague are out and they are looking for someone new.

BUT. I’m not totally gone. My former department has offered me a short-term assignment – basically to save me from being exited from the company. Not everyone is so lucky. Several are getting a severance package today.

It still sucks ass. My direct reports and my team are going to be very distraught. There will continue to be lots of change and unknowns for them. We were building something new and amazing and I was looking forward to it. Continue reading

Things on my bed right now

I’m afraid to use the term “slut mom” because, well, I’ve done that Google search and I know what it gets you.

But…

I’m working at home today since I came down with a cold and I didn’t want to spread any germy love around the office. I’ve been steadily working and taking breaks here and there. I just looked at everything on my bed right now and since it made me laugh out loud, I wanted to share it with you:

  • 2 blankets including a quilt my great-aunt made
  • One of my journals from 1989, which I plan to quote from for an upcoming post
  • My remote access token for work
  • Various computer cables
  • Laptop and mouse
  • Two of my son’s stuffed animals and two of his blankets
  • iPhone
  • Home phone
  • Me
  • Hitachi magic wand (without the gonzo attachment)
  • A large dildo

Yup. If that’s not a strange assortment, I’m not sure what is.

Any of you out there have similar moments?

I suppose I should put at least 2 of those items away before my son gets home.