A wine, cheese, and fatigue inspired ramble.

I slept terribly the last few nights. Normally I’m asleep not five minutes after my head hits the pillow, and I sleep through the night. Issues with relationships fill my mind.

Last night I woke up multiple times. My head was spinning. I’m cycling through so many emotions. Being familiar with the change curve intellectually only helps me to recognize what I’m going through. It doesn’t make going through it any easier.

I think y’all have figured out I have a big brain so I won’t be modest in this moment. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t have the capacity to think the way I do. It’s not always a blessing. Continue reading

Holiday thoughts and a brief update 

Happy Thanksgiving to all my American friends! I’m pretty sure blog traffic dies today – it did last year – as everyone drives all over, cooks turkeys, watches American Football (naturally), and online shops.

That’s what Thanksgiving is all about, right?

I’m thankful every day for what I have, so my attitude toward days like this is similar to Valentine’s Day and New Year’s resolutions; one day a year doesn’t suffice, but sometimes focus is good. Continue reading

A crazy cool blog milestone. Thank you.

I’ve been too busy living life and writing to really pay attention to my blog stats. They still fascinate me – like how can I have a visit from literally almost every country in the world, except fucking Greenland. If it wasn’t so damn big on the map:


Someday, Greenland will happen. A girl can dream.

I’m still constantly amazed and humbled that people find me, read me, and talk to me. It’s pretty awesome. I’ve met friends and lovers and amazing challengers and supporters. This blog has made such a huge difference in my life and helped me through many hard times.

Thank you to all of you who read and comment. 

Two days ago, I noticed my “followers” stats on the main page of my blog. It’s the total of wordpress followers, email followers, and twitter followers. And while there’s definitely some overlap between wordpress and twitter, it still shocked me:


What the hell?! 900 Followers? When the fuck did that happen?

Wow. Just wow. I still remember the day I had 10 followers and exclaimed to the colleague who suggested I blog in the first place “oh gosh I’m so excited, there are 10 people following me!”. That feeling has never worn off. Ranting Crow is one of my first followers and he’s still around – thank you 🙂

This blog is a labour of love. I write for me, first and foremost, and therefore continue to be grateful that my ultimately selfish exercise makes its way into your computers and your phones. I learned early on that I can’t write something at someone else’s request – I’m not talented enough to do it. If it doesn’t come naturally from the workings of my mind, it’s incredibly painful and feels forced. I write the only way I know how – as if you were sitting across from me and I was telling you a story.

Thank you, again, for reading my stories and taking the time to talk to me. 

From the bottom of my bloggy heart,


I have a new crush…

…on a woman…because of her mad crafting skills. I mean shit, she has an Etsy store!!

Ladies and Gentlemen, the one and only Maurna of Cursitivity. I know I’m going to probably love a blogger when “vomiting” is in their tag cloud.

I’ve followed Maurna for a while. Well, except for that time that I fat fingered the follow button on my iPhone and only realized I’d stopped following her when WordPress helpfully suggested her blog to follow. She forgave me, which is awesome.

She posted recently about some of the crafting things she’s done…and her first embroidery example caught my eye: Continue reading