Of course that’s not true; I’m with a girlfriend, her parents, and our three collective children. We are, quite literally, in the middle of nowhere. It’s been a night and day of sun, water, swimming, laughs, music, day drinking, and snacks.
I haven’t had any stories I’ve had the time to make a whole blog post but I thought I’d catch up on a few things (and people).
Work has been super busy. Evenings after putting Liam to bed, weekend monitoring of emails, and the like. We are really close to a big deadline and while it’s not gone super smoothly, so far the problems are all manageable. I was brought in to save it and I really hope I prove to have done so.
I saw Jake this week, he came over late one night, we shared a bottle of wine and this time talked a lot more, and kissed a lot more, before I took him upstairs. He’s a good lover, that one. Each time it gets better. He has a way about him and a sensuality I quite appreciate, which brings out the best in me.
Tony has been away for work for a few weeks which is just as well. We have seen each other just a couple of times since I found out about him deciding to move back. It’s been good to have enforced silence (even though he’s somewhat accessible, given his and my work load there has been a dramatic decrease in communication). He told me he wonders every day if he’s made a mistake. But I can’t get sucked into that misery, nor seduced by any lack of progress on his part. My focus has been elsewhere and that’s perfectly fine.
I hadn’t heard from Doug since last Friday night’s date – I uncharacteristically didn’t send a “thank you” text after I left the next morning. I didn’t block him because it doesn’t make a difference to me to do so. I find blocking extreme and unless someone is aggressively pursuing me despite my asking them to cease, there’s no reason to do so. So I did laugh when on Friday he sent me a “hey Ann have a great weekend” text to which I just said “thanks, same to you.”
I have no intention of seeing him again.
I haven’t heard from Lewis after he said thank you for me being the “hostess with the mostess” after our fivesome. I can’t help but think his unusual silence is because Vicky said something to him about me liking him. But as soon as I type that I think it sounds ridiculous and realize I have no idea why he’s been quiet. I haven’t reached out proactively yet. I might at some point but am trying to resist doing so. He generally comes back.
I heard from Ian recently, out of the blue. I deleted our text message history (after saving it to my computer, naturally) so I couldn’t see his name in my message history reminding me I hadn’t heard from him – which of course was fine but I still don’t want the reminder. So he called me. Wanted to chat, which we did. Was bored at work in my city and I think was hankering for an invitation, which didn’t come. It’s funny to me how despite knowing I don’t particularly care to see him, it takes deliberate effort to not say by rote “oh you’re free? Why don’t you come over?”
But I held my tongue.
I’ve been talking to someone I met via this blog who sends me the most lovely sentiments and texts. I find it so incredible when someone has read all of my innermost thoughts and knows about all of my adventures and not only likes me, but really likes me? Wow.
I’ve been on Bumble and OK Cupid infrequently and there’s not much to say other than nothing has changed on those sites. Very few men with potential and nothing, literally nobody worth really writing about yet. One guy has been fantastic via text; but he’s in the military so is away a lot, and is three inches shorter. I’d like to meet him given how great the conversations have been. I’m hoping to at least have a coffee and see what it’s like. Either way maybe I’ll write a bit about him (the good) and some of the others (the bad) I’ve experienced.
I’ve been in a shit ton of trouble with my ex husband over the last few weeks. He was apoplectic I put a picture on Instagram of me and Liam – who was in shadow. He got angry because I taped a conversation I had with Liam about his first hand holding experience. I just wanted to capture the moment and Will went off about how I was violating Liam’s trust. There’s been more, and it’s so unpleasant. It’s not about whether I’m wrong or not, it’s just how he is when he’s angry. Within 30 seconds I can feel all of the stress from my marriage again. Ugh.
I have Liam more than usual the next couple of weeks. I have three nights kid-free then have him again for 11 days. I have a date set on Tuesday and I’m not going to talk about it until it happens. Because it might not and I don’t want to spend any more time than I might already thinking about it.