The fastest fuck ever.

After our first brief coffee date, which wasn’t a date as much as pre-screening, I explained to Sevag while I had Liam for longer than normal, perhaps we could find another time for coffee or a quick after work drink.

He was very keen to see me again. He told me he could still taste me on his mouth, and he liked it. That he was entirely distracted with thoughts of kissing me – and more.

We spoke again on the phone at night and had another nice long conversation that covered multiple topics. He was easy to talk to.

He sent romantic texts, speaking of how much he already missed me, how much we had in common, and how much potential he saw.

I felt off balance with the intensity and my impulse was to pull back. I didn’t respond in kind but let him know I was interested. He was effusive in his praise. While I agreed with how much we have in common, that we have strong initial physical chemistry, and there seems to be potential, I also know that a few hours of conversations and a quick meeting are not a guarantee.

I’m also not “over” Tony. I don’t think I ever will be. I’m truly resigned to the reality he is stuck, will be for a long time (I can share on a separate post some of the things he wrote to me), and whether I’m in contact will have no bearing on his moving forward. So I don’t have hope for a different outcome in any timeline that practically holds me back from moving on.

I won’t say he’s a lost cause, but I have to act as if he is.

So what’s the problem? I don’t feel ready for someone to feel that intently about me, I suppose. I don’t want to lose myself in something new. I want to be measured about things and to be careful. My history has been jumping in quickly and agreeing to relationship things because the other person adores me and wants to move forward. But then, later, I may realize it’s not what I want.

I used to get so caught up in someone wanting me it never occurred to me to stop and assess whether I wanted them as well. I’m much stronger now, and have been since my divorce. My self-esteem is okay with being alone and I’m not afraid to walk away from something. Or to take care of myself first.

So I’m being careful.

Sevag is an independent guy and agrees on the importance of ones own time and space. But he tells me he wants to spoil me. Could this represent a realistic balance between the nature of Fox and Tony?

We decided to have drinks at his place after work, two days after our coffee meeting. He said it was important for me to see how he lived.

I wondered if I would get the chance to see what our sexual chemistry was like. Part of me thought we should have sex soon to know whether that connection matched the intellectual. We agreed chemistry was important, and we had talked about the criticality of a strong sex life in a relationship.

We took a cab to his place, not far from where I work. Entering the elevator, there was someone I work with infrequently. “Oh!” He said. “I didn’t realize you lived in this building.”

“I don’t”, I said, and the three of us looked at each other awkwardly until we reached Sevag’s floor.

His place is a small city apartment, very stylishly decorated but not a typical boilerplate bachelor pad. It was spotlessly clean, nothing out of place, and interesting things were everywhere. Coffee table books, plants, art, photography, items from his trips.

He kissed me as he asked me what kind of wine I wanted. It’s a very good kiss, our styles merging. We are eye to eye, and he’s strong, pulling me in tight against him. I wish I had the words to describe that feeling when you can sense someone’s intensity and passion. It was hot.

There is more kissing as he poured the wine. More kissing as we sat on his couch. I got two sips in and he’s on me, literally, on the couch, kissing me, hands roaming. His mouth was all over me and his beard scratched my neck.

He put his hands on my breasts. His hunger was palpable. We were all over each other.

He stands up and says “let’s go to the bedroom. I can’t wait any longer”.

I laugh and tell him he hasn’t even taken me out for dinner yet. But I want to know what it’s like to have sex with him.

And that, my friends, is the fastest I’ve ever gone from a meeting on a dating site to being in a man’s bed – when a relationship is the goal.

We undress as we go…the classic leaving clothes every step of the way kind of thing. He pushes me back on the bed and lowers himself on to me. We kiss constantly. It’s really good. I can feel his hardness and then he’s inside me – no condom – and I ask him why not use one and he says he was just tested, that’s he’s clean and was I?

“As far as I know.” I say.

I don’t need the lecture.

But damn, does it feel good. He’s rock hard, and he knows how to have sex. He’s an incredibly skilled lover. He’s muscular. Average sized cock but it doesn’t matter. We move together well and he knows how to angle himself that he hits. Every. Single. Spot.

At one point I’m on top of him and he knows just where to put his hands to help me move back and forth. One hand placed above my pelvic bone which gets the pressure just right. I almost had a full body orgasm with him… which is nuts to happen the first time.

First time sex is rarely like this. It wasn’t even like this with Tony. It’s passionate and intense and beyond the technical positives of good sex. We are breathless with exertion.

I’m in the moment with him for the most part, except for the occasional thought that I’d just had Tony in my bed not 12 hours before.

Yes, you read that right. Don’t yell at me, that post is coming next.

63 thoughts on “The fastest fuck ever.

    • Yes, all men say that but I learned early on many have no clue that there are things you can have with no symptoms, or that a visit to the Doctor does mean they automatically test you for stuff. Ali hasn’t been with anyone for six months… But he shouldn’t have assumed I’m clean!! I haven’t been tested Recently and while anyone I’ve been with other than Fox and Tony has used a condom, I still have it on my list of things to do in the next week or two to go get a full set of STI tests.

      • Most men would just rather not use a condom…I don’t have that much experience but from the few I’ve been with and my friends stories, it is always the same: he doesn’t want to wear one.

        • I don’t know. The two that I was longest with since my split insisted on condoms the first times. For their benefit as much as mine 🙂
          But, given a choice, my Dancer prefers not to wear one either. 😉

          • Some will willingly wear one, I just haven’t encountered that unfortunately. Maybe it’s the younger guys that have the biggest issue with condoms.
            I’ve let guys go without because I didn’t know how to speak up, but then I met a girl who told me she never had unprotected sex, and gave me the courage to speak up. Needless to say, the next guy was none too happy. But I felt a lot better knowing the risk of catching anything went way down.

          • It may be, the younger generation is under the delusion that because there are drugs to treat the symptoms of AIDS, it’s not a big deal to catch it. They don’t realise just how difficult the treatment is.
            I totally hear you on not daring speaking up. I had that problem too. As you learn to stand tall and be proud of who you are, it becomes easier. Though still struggling at times to let my lover know what I want/don’t want at any given time, and we’ve been together almost a year. I’m just lucky that most of the time he seems to get me 🙂
            Please do speak up. They don’t necessarily enjoy wearing one, but it’s better for everybody!

          • Don’t forget condoms don’t protect from everything. And you may want to be careful about double dipping, for example. It’s something I saw once in a porn movie (not that I watch much of it), that irritated me tremendously. The guy made a big show of putting on a condom, practicing safe sex, right?
            Then he goes on and moves from one lady to the next without changing condoms. WTF? Seriously?
            To me, this only showed he cares only about himself, not the women he’s with. Turned me off completely!

          • Yes I too have heard (from STI clinic workers) that there’s a perception with young people that everything is curable therefore nobody needs to be proactive. While in some cases it’s true, it’s not all.

          • Yikes! Not everything is curable. I wish people were more educated on sex related stuff… It definitely doesn’t just affect one person and they need to know the real risks involved. (I haven’t always been safe but going forward I am definitely going to be.)

        • It’s really hit or miss with me. I agree that most men prefer the feeling without a condom, but many consider it a necessity if they are having sex with multiple partners. Until you are fluid bonded with someone and have had a full set of STI testing (and yes, you need 6 months from a prior partner to know you’re completely save from HIV), you aren’t really sure.
          But I’ve done lots of dumb things in the past. I’ve just gotten lucky.

  1. Hahahaha! Oh Ann! You are a riot! And you can weave a tale!
    So, sex on the second date, amazing sex at that, and the first one wasn’t even a date. Then you throw us all back with another revelation about Tony?
    Did I mention I love you? You just made my day!

    Right, to come back to the basics. You don’t need the lecture, so I won’t give it, but… talk about it, now, I mean before you go any further, please?

    Also… amazing fuck on the second meeting (as the first one can’t really be called a date, can it?)… It reminds me of pleasant things almost a year ago. I can only hope for you that things evolve in the same way for you too 🙂
    Can you believe it? Almost a year ago? Sigh!

    I must say that your title threw me back a little. I thought it was the shortest fuck ever, which didn’t bode too well 😉

    I’m happy I was wrong. And am now waiting for the following post, whether on Tony or Ali 😉

    XO

    • Next post is up 🙂
      Glad I could make your day!!! And yes, we are going to have that conversation. I do need him to be tested or convince me. And I, frankly, need to get tested too… It was already on my list of things to do. I’m not worried, I’ve used condoms with everyone other than Fox and Tony this past year (and I knew they were good).

      It was good with Tony, and I’m fine now. It helped me realize I’m truly fine…

      • I read the post.
        Was supposed to do boring work, but couldn’t help myself 😉
        Yes, my day is filled with divorce documents and a big cock up by my lawyer. I’m hoping it can still work out fine. Ugh!
        Add to that no sex in 10 days, and no prospect for sex in at least 5-10 more… Double ugh! Lol!

        I have had sex with men in the heat of the moment, without protection. I’m not casting any stone 😉
        But yes, ask to see documents, or whatever you need to do. And do get tested too. Maybe wait 3 weeks now, so it is taking into account this past encounter? 😉

        And I’m really glad to read that you are fine with Tony. Heart still aching, but convinced that you are making the right choice of moving forward, with no regret.
        I’m happy for you Ann!
        XO

        • I’m sorry about your divorce stuff my dear… I know it’s been so frustrating for you!!

          Yes, I’m in a really great place right now. Seeing Tony and not having it be difficult during or after is very freeing. It helps me know I’m really in the right place – he’s not going to move forward any time soon.

          • Thank you! The good news is that it should be ovre soon, apparently. I just wish my solicitor wasn’t letting me down right now :-/
            But once it’s done, then I’m really free! And I know I have the support of my family, in many ways, should I need it.

            I completely understand that great feeling you have about Tony. Glad you can move on freely!
            XO

  2. Tony was in your bed?
    Again?
    I respect your decisions, Ann, and I’ll always be your friend… but come on!

    As for Ali… a condom would have been appropriate (better safe than sorry), but you know what you’re doing. Glad you had fun!

  3. I can’t lecture at all about the no condom thing, having done the same thing myself recently…lol..and of course also got the “I was just tested”…so doubtful, but passion totally takes over and fogs the brain.

    Can’t wait to read the Tony post! I knew we hadn’t seen the last of that man! Lol

  4. I love what you said about getting caught up in a relationship because the other person wants an adores you. I’ve done that more than a few times and realize a little too late that maybe this isn’t what I want.
    If nothing else comes out of this new adventure at least you’re having some great sex.

  5. I too was thrown off by the title and thought it was a disappointing adventure. Glad I was wrong. No judgement here – I have every faith that you are in full command of your ship. Can’t wait to read the next post.

  6. Go speed racer, go! Meh, just listen to your gut. Ali is hurrying you along, but sometimes it’s OK if you are listening to your gut. The Hunter pushed things forward more rapidly than I wanted at first, but I realized part of my hesitation as fear. Once I let go and opened up, it went much smoother. I can’t wait to read about Tony. I guess old habits die hard, eh?

  7. 59 comments already and most of them about AIDS and STIs and all sorts of depressing, but important, stuff. I’m just dropping in to say that the power in the telling was wonderful and pushed my jeans a little tighter than then normally get at work. Thank you. Now, what about Tony 12 hours before?

  8. For a long time pleasure, let the man wear a tight ring on the base of the cock so that he can last longer and you can enjoy the sex pleasure for more time

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