I will say it once (maybe more than that, but I’m trying). Fox and I do not have the same kind of instant and easy chemistry I have with Tony. Nobody has in the last 27 years. So it just is what it is and I have to move on from it. I’m not saying we have no chemistry – but it’s not the same. I fully expect nothing else will be, and if it is, I will be pleasantly surprised.
There are a LOT of things that Fox does that Tony never did. Wonderful things. Things I need and things I want. This post is about a few of those things.
I like it when Fox kisses me. Physically, he’s given me a full body orgasm every time we’ve had sex, and I never got that with Tony, who only let me be on top three times. Yes, that’s right: three times in seven months.
Fox asked me whether I thought he should get a Viagra / Cialis prescription to offset what he sees as a decline in his blood flow. When I said he should if he would feel better with it? Guess what, he went and did it. He’s got a prescription now and I can’t wait to try him on it when I get back from vacation.
He asks for my feedback on how he’s doing physically and is incorporating anything I tell him. It’s important to him that he’s pleasuring me. We haven’t had sex all that many times and I know it can keep getting better.
This is the man who heard my story and saw my bruises after my time on the cross with the Dom, and his response was “that’s fucking hot”. While he doesn’t do what he classifies as “whips and chains”, he’s certainly not entirely vanilla, either.
My favorite text from him so far is: “You know, I want to make love to you on a bed of roses and also DP you with toys. Weird.” I told him it wasn’t weird, it was awesome. He followed that up by telling me I had “great fuck faces”.
He compliments me regularly – not obsessively so, but when I send him a picture I get responses like “wow, amazing! so beautiful – thank you” or “you are so fucking hot”. It feels really great.
Here is an example of a typical exchange:
When he couldn’t come with me the second time I planned to meet the Dom and I asked him how he felt if I went anyway, his response was “it’s not something I can give to you”. He wasn’t threatened; he said if he was there he would likely watch and masturbate to the scene.
Most importantly perhaps, Fox sees me as the whole package and embraces it. He hasn’t shied away from anything I’ve told him so far.
When we asked about exclusivity, I was honest with him about my reluctance, not because I was seeking other relationships (yes, sorting out Tony aside) but because I’m on a sexual journey and don’t want to set myself up for failure.
Since I left on my vacation, he texted he would like to revisit that discussion. I know he will say he wants us to be exclusive. I said I would have the dialogue but then asked him to think about whether he’d be willing to “share” me with others, if we did so together.
Here’s how the conversation went:
So you can see…the dude is pretty cool. As I have said countless times, I think I want to have a primary relationship where we occasionally play with others. But that’s a total theory; I’ve never had enough of a primary relationship to really test that theory.
It seems as though Fox is willing to go there with me. And it’s not the only nice thing about him.