I have lots to write. I’ve fallen behind. So I will leave you with this….
Since Tuesday, I have done the following:
- Bruised my cervix such that it’s taken three days to feel better.
- Experienced the largest penis I’ve ever been with.
- Been put on the back burner, where I’m unhappy.
- Talked to Tony for an hour.
- Saw Tony.
- Was reminded how much I love Tony, and learned how much he’s missed me.
- Have NOT fooled myself that much has changed with Tony, if anything.
- Went for dinner with a girlfriend.
- Spontaneously went to a swingers club (a new one) with Jason who arranged for us to meet a couple.
- Kissed a woman for the first time.
- Had a woman go down on me for the first time.
- Was beaten for the first time, on a cross, with an audience, by a real Dom (one I’d been talking to for months who just happened to also be at said club).
So yeah. There’s this:
[I deleted this picture. Seems it was a bit much for some of you, even from me. I’m sorry. I’m sad if I offended anyone. Let’s just say my ass is bruised and marked and it was all just fine in the moment and I was surprised at how it looks in the aftermath.]
Oh, and I may be seeing Tony tonight. If I do, it’s likely he’ll see my ass. I guess I will be telling him a few things about my sexual journey.
I promise to write more. I’m just leaving for a first date and arranging a second one. Perhaps I will have some down time by the end of the weekend 🙂