I’m working at home today – had the Friday morning school dropoff and a few calls and that was it. I also needed to wash and dry what feels like an endless amount of winter gear.
Jason knows I sometimes work from home on Fridays. Last night he sent me a saucy text message (he’s been in pretty constant contact these days, unlike someone we know) and joked he was just going to come on over and give me a good seeing too.
Wow, was I tempted. Sorely tempted. I haven’t had sex in almost three weeks. Now, I’m not out of my skin with desire, but I could use a good fucking.
Combine that with the thought that my relationship with Tony is surely about to end, and I confess I did consider taking Jason up on his offer. Especially if he just showed up at my door, I thought about what I would do.
And I said no. He didn’t tempt me in person, but the temptation and opportunity was there. I realized that in the incredibly minor (<5% chance) that Tony returns and is newly committed and emotionally available (try not to spit out your drink), I didn’t want to have cheated. The other fact is that Jason isn’t going anywhere. Pretty sure I can get a good fucking out of him within a couple of days of telling him I’m available.
Tony comes back on Monday. I have no idea when, because I haven’t heard from him. So, now I’m just so darn curious what it will be like when he does get in touch. Anyone want to guess which scenario it could be:
a) he’s thought about things and has decided to get back with his ex.
b) he’s thought about things and has decided to be emotionally available to me and fully committed (not that he’d say it that way).
c) he hasn’t thought about anything to do with me and will just expect things will be exactly as they were before I left on my vacation.
d) other options? I won’t take offense…