Two out of three ain't bad (aka I lost my job today)

Well. That didn’t go well.

For the first time in my life, I’ve become “redundant”. It’s truly not personal nor is it performance based – my company is going through a massive restructuring, aided by an international top strategy consulting firm, and the decision was made to combine my team and another team. Obviously, they don’t need two senior executives to run one team. Both me and my colleague are out and they are looking for someone new.

BUT. I’m not totally gone. My former department has offered me a short-term assignment – basically to save me from being exited from the company. Not everyone is so lucky. Several are getting a severance package today.

It still sucks ass. My direct reports and my team are going to be very distraught. There will continue to be lots of change and unknowns for them. We were building something new and amazing and I was looking forward to it.

And now I need to figure out what’s next for me.

I do have lots of options, I suppose. Given the nature of the work I do, I can try to find something at the company I’m with today, or another in the industry, or into consulting, or be independent.Β  But it’s just not change I particularly want to deal with right now. I’ve already cried a few times today and I’m going to go through the seven stages of grief. At least I know what to expect.

On the bright side, I’ve got answers to two of three outstanding questions, and to quote Meatloaf, that ain’t bad.

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  1. Awful stuff. I’m sorry. When I was in my “getting laid off” session, I told my boss that this is how it must feel to be fired. She said I wasn’t being fired–that I was getting a severance–but I failed to see the difference. Still felt the same.

    Okay. Onward through the fog and all that stuff. Keep us posted. All good wishes to you. I’d advise you to immediately file for unemployment but I don’t know how that works up up there.

    • Well I have been given a “save” in that another team took me on temporarily. I have 6 months to find a permanent job at my company. If I can’t, then I get the severance. But I can also choose to take the severance package in advance if desired. So some choices, but still difficult and not change I am in any way looking forward to at this point.

  2. Well, fuck. You need a great big bottle of wine tonight. Change is sometimes scary, but I’m hoping that the end of this job will create an even better opportunity for you. I know you were wanting to stay, but it does sound like you have other options…so it could be worse. Still, ugh.

      • It is a good thing you’ve already got a party scheduled for tomorrow… You may not be in the mood to party, but it is nice to be surrounded by good friends when times are tough and even nicer to be surrounded by booze πŸ˜‰

  3. I’m sorry to hear this. I am glad you have some options to consider, ,but it is never a good time, especially when you were having that connection with the team. ((HUGS))

    (my like was an empathy-like, in case you were wondering)

    • totally get the empathy like, thank you πŸ™‚

      And yeah, options are good for sure. Way worse for some who had no choice at all. But I wasn’t really looking for any additional changes in my life right now.

  4. Worst news ever =( Just looked at my facebook status of when I was fired cause I wanted to share with you what I wrote…here it is: “Horrible, horrible day…I just got fired from my job…it came out of no where…I’m extremely depressed and don’t understand why…I had no meeting within the past year with my boss about any issues. Man, this world is making it tough for me.
    I had driven the company car to work and they offered to take me home but I said I had no problem taking a taxi. My taxi driver started talking about a horrific event in her life where whe was almost beat to death…giving detail descrptions that I had to say at one point: “ok, ok, no no more details…how horrible!!” I think God, the higher power, definitely was looking out for me and wanted to tell me: “Lisa, you haven’t been beaten to death so you can get through this.” So for now I’m jut gonna focus on breathing and try not too worry…”
    I’m glad you have lots of options.

  5. Good times, all around. Trying to look at the bright side and remind myself that every end is a new beginning. Best of luck to you, Ann! Also, 1 cookie won’t kill you, but don’t eat the whole box!

  6. Ann,

    The change is what sucks. You have worked diligently to build something there and some outside consultant firm renders that effort moot (there are loads of articles about these firms and how corporations hire them not having any concept of the damage that often results). Having been through this a number of times, I got quite accustomed to dealing with it. The last time it happened, I looked at the HR director and smiled. I thanked her for letting me go. The job economy was just starting to take off an my skills were in demand. The nice thing was to pocket 6-months of salary and slide into my current gig after three weeks.

    The emotional impact is “all” that you have to contend with. You are an amazingly intelligent woman who is in the driver’s seat. Today is a lost day in that you can simply detach from the event, get out and do something for you and forget about the impact of the change. You will figure out where you want to go and what you want to do in pretty short order.

    You are in my thoughts, Ann.

  7. Right, will you hate me if I make a little fun?
    At least, now, Will can’t sue you for child support πŸ˜‰

    Aside from that, I know how it feels. I got a similar news last week… Not exactly the same as you, but something that threatens my whole financial stability as I had envisioned for the foreseeable future.
    So now I have to reinvent myself, once again. Hey, another funny thing: for once, I was the one ahead of you by almost a week πŸ˜‰

    Alright, I know you know I’m just trying to bring some smile on your face. I know it may be the last thing you want today. Just cry if that’s what you need to do. So you might hate what I wrote. Hopefully, going back to it tomorrow or in a week will bring the smile I’m aiming for.
    I also know what it’s like to lose your team suddenly. I used to work, a long time ago, in a different life maybe, with a team of 20 or so people. And then I was unexpectedly hospitalised one evening because of problems in a pregnancy. I left my office and never set foot there ever again. It was tough. I understand what you can feel like.

    But if I may relate your story to mine a little bit more: I think it may actually be for the best that I lost this opportunity for work. Because it would have given me stability but not afforded independence from my ex.
    Now, my hand is forced into taking my destiny into my own hands. And for once in my life I may actually be financially independent from my ex. If, no, when that happens, it will be a great day for me indeed.

    Come on sister: Chin up. And then elbow up too πŸ˜‰
    Party with your friends and forget all about it tomorrow.

    Or, if you want something more quiet right now: Big hugs. Don’t worry about blowing your nose on my shoulder, I’ll wash my top afterwards… πŸ˜‰

    (I know, I suck at humour, I sincerely feel for you and send you big hugs!).

  8. Ugh. I’m sorry.

    I was made redundant once, and they also found me another position so logically I *knew* that they valued my work, but that little voice still whispered that it was because they thought I was rubbish (imposter syndrome: busted!!), and the utter lack of control over all of it was horrible.



  9. I don’t like what’s happened to you but I like your spirit and the way you articulated some really shitty news. I’m truly sorry for what you are going through but I’m also confident you will come out of this better than when you came in.

  10. *sigh* well clearly I can’t like this post, even though I do love me some Meatloaf. I won’t pretend that my “I’m sorry” helps, because it doesn’t. Not really other than you know that someone out here is sorry. Even when it’s a redundancy due to a number of factors, we’re all human and it’s a change hoisted upon oneself that isn’t welcome, even if it’s kinda sorta expected. We have our next wave of “restructuring” next week and a colleague at the table said “it’s not big deal, these people have to know it’s not personal” several of us sat up in a visceral reaction. Yes it is a business decision but to the person/people it’s happening to, no matter how rational or “smart”, at some level it still *feels* personal. Now, all of this said, you do have options and based on your success and network you probably have numerous options that will allow you to reinvent your career and find more success that fits into the world of you and Liam +1 I am looking forward to what ASV’s next career endeavor will be {{hugs}}

  11. Well fuck, that certainly does suck. Veronica lost a job last June in what sounds like similar circumstances, I have a pretty good idea how you’re feeling


  12. UGH. this just fucking sucks. I’m so, so sorry. I’ve been laid off twice. both times I ended up in a much better place professionally and mentally. the change is scary, but can be really, really good. the last time, I regret not enjoying some down time to figure out what I really wanted to do next. my advice to anyone would be to really take and savor this gift of time to reflect and refocus. now, go drink some wine!! (big hug!)

  13. Ann, I am so sorry about this sudden fork in the road. I had a similar experience in 2011 during a re-structure. It ripped me out of a company I had invested a decade of my heart & soul. Now, 4 years later I can say it was a great thing for me. It pushed me outside my comfort zone, I learned who were truly friends & who wasn’t. Since I’ve left, I made more $$ with less corporate political BS. You are a smart, resourceful, resilient woman. You’ll be fine. It’s scary, but you will be fine.

  14. Yeah, that sucks. I know how you feel. I was made redundant once, too. But you know, as much as it was scary, it was a good thing. I got my redundancy pay, went on a holiday, looked for a job and found one that was much better than my previous one. I am not sure how it is done in the US, but in the UK usually the employers need to offer you some courses on how to write a CV and some even organise a few days courses on self-improvement. If your company offers that, use it as much as you can. Don’t worry. It will be all right. Everything happens for a reason!

  15. Fucking sucks about sums it up. Wallow as much as you want cause I know you will hold
    Your head high and proud woman. Wishing I could hug you and have a drink with you….from across the world, thinking of you.

  16. Ann, Sorry to hear about your job situation, I admire you trying to see the bright side with getting 2 out of 3 of your issues resolved.

    Not sure of your line of work, but I’ve found consultants to be a path that has a lot of upsides.

    Wishing you the best in all of your future endeavors.

  17. Oh Ann! I’m so sorry πŸ™
    You are taking in true-Ann style with grace and a positive spirit – feel free to drop me a line if you’d like to vent.
    That said, if anyone will land on their feet – it’s you. You are smart, brilliant, and strategic. I have no doubt you’ll end up where you are supposed to be. xo

  18. You’re a survivor, Ann.
    That fact doesn’t make what you’re going through any less painful and scary though. I know you’ll be all right in the long run, both professionally and personally.
    I’m hugging you virtually, Ann.
    Be well.

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