I know how easy it is to maintain the status quo.
You met me on your very first, first date.
I’m lovely, funny, and smart. I laugh at your jokes and don’t push you too much to open up. I will f*ck you whenever you ask, eat burgers with you, and watch sports with you. I am understanding of your work schedule and its limitations.
I’m easy. I’m a “cool girl”.
And you? You are handsome, funny, and smart. Your sensuality turns me on: I like how you smell and how you touch me. You are the actual adventurous soul I want to be with, not the one I thought I married. You want to do new things with me and you talk about it in the future tense. I simply like being with you.
But I know you are not perfect. You have yet to get your shit sorted with your ex and your son. I am often unsatisfied with the sex we have. You don’t share your hopes, fears, and dreams. While you remember every single thing I’ve told you, you don’t ask me anything. You don’t yet realize you can have what you want with someone other than your ex.
I’m with you not only because of how you make me feel – more importantly, I’m with you because of the person you are.
I gave up things to be exclusive with you. I made the conscious choice. I turned my back on real and potential lovers to see what this could be with you.
That choice is not one time only. I decide to be with you every single day.
Can you say the same?
I do not want to be your default. Because it’s easy, convenient, and I’m already here. Because I f*ck you and do nice things for you.
I spent 15 years being a default. And having a default. I vow to never be that, and do that, again.
Do not stay with me because I make you feel good.
Stay with me because you want to make me feel good, too.
Stay with me because you love the person I am, and the person you know I will be in 20 years.
And if you don’t, then let me go.