In just under two weeks I’m going to meet several bloggers. That’s not how the plan started, but it’s what has happened. I’m a little nervous about it, to be honest.
One I have met before, albeit briefly. I have no doubt, given our on and off blog interactions, we will have a great dinner and drinks and talk non-stop. Definitely not nervous about meeting them.
But the others I haven’t met before.
One has lamented I am exclusive with Tony since despite never meeting me in person, he seems sure he will want to fuck me. I’m glad I come across so desirable, I suppose, but am sure I will disappoint since a fantasy is rarely as good as reality.
One I have barely spoken with off-blog yet when I mentioned I would be in his city, he said he’d like to take me for a drink. We have some similar aspirations when it comes to the opposite sex, and similar appetites, so he’s interested in talking. A meeting of the minds only, as there has been no flirting whatsoever. I’m a little afraid of being attracted to him…from his blog is seems he has a rather magnetic personality.
Then there is another blogger who is married, isn’t a sex blogger at all, and I am a big admirer of his writing. We’ve talked off and on since shortly after I started blogging. Never flirting, just an exchange of stories. I want to meet him and suggested we do so when I knew I’d be nearby. We are trying to sort out schedules to make sure we can meet. If he chose to talk about me, I hope he’d be kind.
There are a couple others as well who I’ve invited to join me and the first blogger I mentioned for drinks one night. A flock of bloggers, as it were. Some I know better than others.
But my anonymity is important to me, so I’ve been thinking about what to share, since I realized I could meet upwards of seven bloggers. A couple of these people know my real name. Only one knows the company I work for. Although I am very open on my blog, there are things I don’t share. Name, location, profession, company…those kinds of things. So am I really willing to share those things with people I don’t know that well?
Do I think it will impede any conversation whatsoever? Nope. It hasn’t stopped my almost 400 posts here, so can’t imagine it will stop a couple hours of cocktails. Yes, I used that word very deliberately.
Do I worry that I will disappoint? Yes, somewhat. I’m confident about who I am and don’t spend a lot of time trying to be someone I’m not. On my blog I try to be who I am in real life, as I don’t know how to be anyone else. So I feel like this is an accurate reflection of me, but I can’t control the blanks someone might fill in. What do they think I will look like? Sound lke? Do they think my comments about having a generous behind is just typical female hating my body crap?
Who knows. Again, something I have to put in the “things I can’t control” box.
I suppose I hope they will write about it – publicly or privately – so I can have an opportunity to learn how I come across on my blog and what, if any, differences there are from me in person.
And I’ve been deliberately vague here about them, even though most are found commenting on my blog. They are welcome to “out” themselves since I won’t make it a secret where I’m going, but some of them say where they live, and others don’t. And some, no doubt, prefer to keep their off blog meetings private, even if no shenanigans are planned.