Possession

A new-ish reader liked this post of mine today and I clicked on it to read, since I couldn’t exactly remember which one it was.

There were a few phrases that really stood out, given everything I’m processing right now…so consider this my own made-up four month throwback Tuesday, for those of you who didn’t read it the first time.

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  1. I see myself in your story very much….I am also a woman who is, it seems, incapable of monogomy. I’ve literally cheated on every partner I’ve ever had, including my husband. We are separating but at the moment still live together, and last night he was with another woman. I very nearly curled up and died (I like your way of describing it as “breaking”). So I read your whole story to pass the time…

    At this juncture, I know I am sort of a half person…I am searching for my own inner man and keep fumbling by trying to seek him in other men (always sexually, which is ultimately draining my spirit, I’ve realized). I love sex, but I want to be whole more than anything. I want to be my own greatest love before I do anything more with anyone. Sometimes I forget that, though.

    I send you both strength at this time, as clearly it was something very special. I also thank you both for being so forthcoming in your journey through it all. Your honesty on both sides is quite remarkable.

    • Im so sorry you are at the end of your marriage. It is a very difficult time.

      I was faithful to my husband for all but the last 18 months of our marriage, and the change was prompted by his telling me we could be open. It didnt work, however.

      When you say you read my whole story do you mean you read my whole blog? My goodness… I’m up to 275 posts…you must have been really hurting. I’m sorry :/

      • I was just going to post that I wasn’t implying you cheated yourself. I’m happy for you there…it is truly soul destroying. It’s more that I share your appreciation for the many beautiful men out in the world. Ask me what my favorite icecream is, and i’ll give you a list!

        I read your joint compilation that you put together, so posts about your relationship (his, as well). I have yet to read your entire blog but making my way! I like how honest you are.

        Thank you for your kind words. I am still breathing, so that’s encouraging.

        • You will look back a year from now and be amazed how far you’ve come…and there are lots of support networks here (including me!).

          Thanks for your kind words about my blog. I treat this as my journal so honesty for me is paramount.

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