This will be short and not sweet.
I’m pretty pissed off about something. It’s not a new something, but a couple things have brought it all back up for me. I realised I’m not over it.
I wrote a post about it today and shared it with Johnny, since it’s about him. Now he’s angry that I’m angry (granted, this is probably an oversimplification). It’s not about the shit that happened a couple of weeks ago, but IS about what happened between us a few months ago.
I have to decide whether to put up that post. The reality is, I obviously haven’t really worked through what happened. I think I just kind of put it to the side in the name of peace and harmony, but yet didn’t deal with how it made me feel.
So how much do I honor my anger and get it out there on the page, knowing that yes, it’s old wounds, and yes, Johnny feels it makes him look like an asshole? Or do I take a quiet approach and focus on working through it and finding it in my heart to forgive? Maybe both will work and it’s just not time for the latter yet.
I’m so measured and calculated that I rarely let myself just be mad.
I don’t know what to do.