I'm not having my best moment.

Literally, right now.

I feel fat in this dress.

Not a shocker, since I’ve gained 10 pounds. Which is quite distressing. Intellectually I know it’s ridiculous but, well, it is what it is.

Coming off the pill is messing with my body.

I messed up something at work, and annoyed someone who should really be my ally. It’s not a big deal, but I hold myself to a very high standard.

Yesterday someone did something shitty to me, and I’m still pissed about it, but trying to do something about it won’t make it better.

I found out a family member has cancer and he’s waiting to hear how progressed it is.

Johnny and I are in the midst of an argument. To be clear, this is one of the larger contributors to my pissy mood.

The reason for the argument has caused a friend to also feed bad.

I just got an email from my ex which was super mega fucking snarky, having to do with my trying to schedule some stuff for my son over the next two months. I don’t even know how to respond without causing a shit show.

I just got a phone call from a friend telling me a guy I went out with once, who I liked, and who never called me again, is at the same bar as her. She told me all about how amazing he looked. Like I really needed that information.

And I’m struggling to make sense of some things in my life right now.

So, what I am going to do? Go out for drinks and dinner. Drown myself in wine and hopefully-not-all-deep-fried food.

I would respond on your blogs but it’s all going to spam anyway. But at least I can still see what you write here.

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  1. Yesterday I snapped at my Work Wife and made her cry. Today a friend I was dating as late as June is now engaged. I’m getting the same vibes from a new friend that I did from my ex when we first started our relationship, which has since gone to dating apocalypse to peace keeping and pleas bargains. I don’t face the stigmas women do to look their best, lose weight, etc., but I’m right along side you on feeling pretty shitty. Hugs darling.

  2. You can also use the door stop and shove it up the ass called life.
    Okay It does involve finding its ass first.
    Never mind me just breaking the ice, cheers Ann I’ll have one for you as well.

  3. Shitty stuff always happens at the same time BUT that means when it all passes, you can have some peaceful happy moments without any shit. The roller coaster of life πŸ™‚
    Have a wine (or 5), see a friend and hang in there, it’ll all be awesome again soon πŸ™‚ xo

    • Thank you πŸ™‚

      Roller coaster indeed. Better to have it every once in a while than a constant stream of shit.

      The wine and friend helped πŸ™‚
      Still have to face the crap today but at least I had a momentary distraction.

  4. Drinks and dinner will just add fuel to the fire. Yes you will feel good for a sec but when it wears off you will be back to being annoyed. I say just be bummed for a little bit. Pout, be grumpy, be sad…..But only give it a little bit of time and then scrape yourself up and make some changes. Sometimes it seems that all this stuff is happening at once when in reality you deal with this stuff daily. Its your attitude towards one of the events that is making the others bigger than they are. Deal with them all each individually. Not all at once. Feel better.

  5. Hope your mood has improved Ann!!

    I think it’s the week for shitty. I’ve had a pretty shitty one too which ended up with a hospital visit – but at least they gave me good drugs.

    Virtual hugs for you, hang in there! Coming off the pill fucks with your hormones more than you realize.

    • Sharn! Hospital visit shitty definitely trumps morose and confused and fat shitty. Are you okay now?

      Yeah, I *do* feel fucked with right now. Thanks for the words of encouragement.

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